A cure?

So... this post will mostly be my whining for the last couple of months. I thought maybe I was going insane for a while. Almost ready to jump off a bridge crazy.

My little bundle of joy has been screaming for the last, mmm 3 weeks or so. He has been an especially fussy little man, but I thought, "Oh it's just colic, it will pass". or "Oh it's just gas, it will get better after he poops/farts". Well things kept getting worse after a few weeks. It has been to the point were I was up almost every hour at night, trying to feed/soothe/cure ANYTHING I could for this screaming baby. Nothing helped.

The thing that makes me the most crazy is, everytime I took him to the doctor, they looked at me like I was a retard. Especially cause once we were there, my child was a flippin angel.

They just told me, that he was just a "fussy baby", that he gets more uptight than most.

I really wasn't that convinced.

He was really fussy around 6 to 8 weeks old, never really knew why, but we just sort of dealt with it. He would get really constipated, which we thought was really weird, since he is a breastfed baby. I did everything to cut things out of my diet like dairy, vegetables, anything that I thought hurt his stomach.

Nothing really seemed to help. And since he was just a "fussy baby" I just put that in my head and moved on.

I'm sorry, but I am a big believer that when a baby/child is SCREAMING, there is something wrong. End of story.

My child was SCREAMING, and the doctor just said that it was the "purple period of crying".

I am sorry again, but "purple period" my ass.

On saturday the 6th of August, I finally broke down, took him to the urgent care by our house and asked if they could figure out something.

They looked in his ears and said his right ear was slightly red and they saw some mucous in his throat. They treated him with the shot antibiotic and also gave us an Rx for amoxicillin.

Well, that made things COMPLETELY worse. I really don't remember sleeping for about 5 days.

I was dying. Jared was dying. We were ready to sell our baby to the Indians!

Well after the 5th day of this screaming, we took him to another doctor who I actually knew from working at Granger Medical Clinic, who agreed to look in his ears to see if they got worse. Basically to check and figure out why he was still screaming.

She looked at him, and this time he was crying and fussing the whole time we were there. Especially when she would touch his stomach. She wanted us to go up to Primary Children's hopsital and get some X-ray's and do some labs to check for other issues. She was worried that he had some kind of blackage in his intestines, or something along the lines of that.

Well we drove up there, and of course, perfect angel when we were there. Fell asleep without fussing (this NEVER happens), talked to the doctor, and acted completely fine.

The nurse was really nice though and said that it happens all the time. She laughed and said that they must have magic doors or something. They make children better all the sudden.

Well, all I can say is I was about to drop him off and leave him there. Maybe I could get some sleep that way?

Well they did an X-ray of his stomach, did a catheter to check his urine.

Urine came back negative. The X-ray did show some areas of gassy bubbles, and one small buldge/pocket of liquid that they thought was just a watery stool, since the amoxicillin did give him horrible diarrhea.

They said keep an eye on him and bring him back if he is still being awful.

Well the next day he was a whole new baby. No we didn't give him anything, he just acted so much better. So then I thought, maybe it was just the amoxicillin that made him be so awful.

Well the next day rolled around, and we were back to square one. Yes, he was screaming again.

I was so upset. I really didn't know what to do at this point.

So we waited through the weekend to see if he was still just "sick" and it would pass. Well it didn't.

We took him back to his primary care doctor, who examined him again. He decided we should try Zantac on a whim pretty much, as see how he does. I was willing to try anything at this point, so we went with it.

So the last 2 days, he has been different. I can't quite tell if he is getting better or not. There's been a few times I can tell he is much happier, and then he starts crying or screaming again.

Babies are hard.

That is my conclusion.

I love my little monkey so much. He really has been a blessing. I am praying that I make it through the next few months without going completely insane. Also, I am hoping that as this Zantac gets into his system that it will possibly be the cure to this craziness.

I would love to sleep more than 3 to 4 hours at a time at night. I would love to see my baby laugh and giggle tons more, without him being in pain. I would love to go on a stroller ride, go to the park, go to the store, ANYTHING and not have him be screaming. That is my ultimate goal, to make the pain go away for him.

I would also kill to have our own place again. I think I may go completely insane having my mother, sister, brothers, and dad on my back about everyting. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my family and everything they have done for us. But, it's just not the same as having your own place. When your married, you just do things differently than your parents do, or your siblings do. I hate to say it, but I am super jealous of all the couples that didn't lose there jobs in this recession, and have been able to live in their own place, with their own lives, and you don't have a younger brother eating all your food that you just bought. Jared has been searching for a job for quite a few months now, and all I can say is it SUCKS!

Okay, so I will get off my soap box now.

On a happy note, school starts next week for Jared and I. I am quite nervous to go back again, but I know I only have a year and half left. Then I will have my Bachelor's and be DONE! Until I decide to finish my Master's, that is.

I will get there. I have plenty of time, right?

I will post pictures when I get a free moment again. I do have some really cute pictures, but when I have more energy I will post them.

For now, enjoy the whining! :)